I don’t know what I want this evening. I want my boyfriend here. I know it’s pathetic that I miss him when he’s gone to his dads for only a day but I do.

The bed feels massive even though it’s a single

Most of my friends have gone off to university so there really isn’t much to do.

Do I want food?

Do I want to watch something? Read something? Take a bath?

I doubt I’m going to figure it out; so for now, I’m going to the shops for cigarettes. God I wish I didn’t smoke so this would be a treat.

I want to tidy up but I don’t have the energy.

I want to go to sleep but I’m not that tired.

Why the fuck am I upset? Everything’s fucking fine.

Grace x