Why is that? Why is it that you’re fine by yourself but after a relationship yourself just isn’t enough anymore? Tuesday, Sep 25 2012 

You’re fine and you’re happy, things are going right,

You’re self-sufficient intelligent and bright.

He comes along and you think, yes wow,

Things really are going my way now.

The days go on, the months, the years,

It’s subtle at first and you don’t ever realize.

Then one day he’s gone, bish bash, bagoon!

That’s when you realize how much you’re world changed, how much you’ve changed. You realize he became the glue that held you together, you got used to this glue, and even though you have the same job and everything else in your life is great, somehow it’s harder and different, you can’t keep yourself together anymore.

Why is that?

Grace x

SERIOUSLY?!?! Monday, Sep 24 2012 

Now, for the people who read my blog, you will know I am not slutty when it comes to capitals, I use them sparingly and the whole ‘?!?!’ has not even been used yet. However, now is the time!

So, I’m all casually sitting on Facebook; reading some blogs; playing some Tetris etc. etc. and begin talking to a friend of mine from university. We’re chatting about the normal stuff and I ask who’s back and he says that actually he saw one of my friends yesterday. He said that she was happy and everything with her was good but did mention that her room was absolutely tiny in her new house.

“She said I’d love her new room haha! Has she got a single bed?” Is my response.

“Yeah,” he says. “The only reason she got that room was because the other girls had boyfriends.”

WHAT!?!

That is one of the most idiotic things I have ever heard in my life! Why should rooms be decided upon because someone has a boyfriend. I mean, obviously I understand the practicalities of it (sleeping, clothes etc.) but this cannot mean that rooms are decided like this! Why should someone be punished for the fact that their housemates have boyfriends?

Also, none of the girls in the house have steady relationships: one cheated on her boyfriend and they are very on and off and the other slept with everyone last year and got a boyfriend like a month ago- surely you cannot decide a year long living arrangement on these facts! These girls lived in halls last year and all had single beds, they survived that didn’t they?!

I am absolutely astonished that this was the way to pick rooms, what happened to picking out of a hat?

Why should a single person not get the chance to have a double bed because they are single, they may even have more people in it if their into that sorta thing! And if not, they should still be allowed a double bed, I mean, your boyfriend isn’t even always going to be there so essentially you’re getting a double bed because of a Facebook status.

I’m not sure why I’m so angry, this in no was effects me but I am.

I am SO angry!

Grace x

Am I spoiled goods? Monday, Sep 24 2012 

I was thinking about this last night, albiet, after a few glasses of wine (I couldn’t sleep, sue me).

The thing is, I think my boyfriend is absolutely wonderful, he’s all up for seeing me all the time, moved in, visits me like crazy when we’re at university (yes, they are close but still); takes me on holidays; does little gestures; is great in bed (and balconies, parks etc.) and is just generally amazing. The thing I was thinking was, will I find others this amazing? Will they be amazing in other ways? Will I inadvertedly put ridiculous expectations on them?

Do you lovely people think that a person can, in a respect, spoil you so much that future relationships won’t compete?

The thing is, I know it’s a ridiculous thought as essentially most people will think that the person they are in love with is the best person ever and will think that others won’t measure up (ha, this could be a whole other topic). I know it’s silly but hey, it’s a thought…

Grace x

 

 

Some pathetic facts about Grace Sunday, Sep 23 2012 

Well, I guess they can be called pathetic, my boyfriend says endearing, my friends say cute, I say it’s my way of showing affection:

  • I need to speak to my boyfriend everyday
  • Cuddles…I must be cuddled to bed every night unless something horrifically important prevents this from happening
  • If I text my boyfriend and he doesn’t reply for a while I am in a bit of a mood until he does (in fact, he just did and I felt an immediate lift in my mood and decided to write this post, also, I’m being way cool by not replying straight away)
  • If in a social environment I like my boyfriend to demonstrate signs of affection very often
  • I get so worried if we don’t have sex twice a day, I feel like something is seriously SERIOUSLY wrong
  • I love it when he wears the bracelet I got him for our one year anniversary
  • I hate it when he texts around me
  • I adore it when he runs plans by me before committing to any
  • I find it so hard to sleep when he isn’t with me, ironic because when he is I want to spend all the time I can with him but always conk off to sleep
  • Pretty much any interaction with girls annoys me to at least a tiny extent- yes, this does include my friends

I can imagine there are more but I think I’ve made people want to throw up enough for now and have probably embarrassed myself enough too.

Grace x

Arguments, meddling friends and a fuck load of alcohol! Saturday, Sep 1 2012 

So, yesterday I was all moaning about going to the pub because I was so tired. Maybe I shouldn’t have gone. My boyfriend showed up completely wasted and off his head and we ended up arguing about the whole thing that happened with Satan earlier that day (see last post). However, as he was so bloody drunk he went from apologetic to just plain dickhead.

Naturally, Judas (https://overthinkingmind.wordpress.com/2012/08/26/oh-my-god/, basically gets involved in bloody everything to do with me and my boyfriend) got involved yet again. When I decided to walk home by myself she began shouting at me that I was ‘ruining everyone else’s night’! The thing is, how would me staying and arguing with my boyfriend not ruin everyone else’s night? How boring is she to say that if I leave her night will be shit? Don’t play the ‘you’re worried’ card- I live about five minutes away!

Anyway, I found my boyfriend and we talked and talked and he began to sober up and things were actually pretty okay. However, apparently our friends don’t understand when we need some alone time to talk about our problems and sort stuff out- just the two of us. Without them standing over our shoulder; without them intercepting into the argument and without them pretending to be councillors! I definitely think the argument got way more out of hand because people started to get involved!

In the morning I was woken up with sex so that was pretty awesome. It was really hot too, I mean, since the whole hand incident he hasn’t really made much effort. Today he just threw me down and decided to fuck me- seriously hot stuff. We found two new positions from rolling around too! A new fingering/ tossing off one as well!

After we talked and he apologised for being a drunk douche. He’s gone to football now before I see him this evening. I’m happy 🙂

By the way: I’m going camping on Monday! I have never been camping (well, unless festivals count), I’m rather excited. Judas will be there but who cares! I’ll try to sneakily post little tibits, do not know how I’m going to tear myself away from proper blogging from Monday to Wednesday!

Out again tonight, bar crawl!

Grace x