Christmas is over Wednesday, Dec 26 2012 

I enjoyed the first cigarette today when I got back home from my nans house. They know I smoke and they smoke yet I don’t feel comfortable smoking there.

Kind of like sex…people know it happens but it isn’t mentioned.

Christmas was okay but I just wanted to get home, it seems that a lot of Christmas sentiments are made up really, it doesn’t feel like what happens is real. It doesn’t seem like anyone really wants to be there all that much and everyone just wants to get back to their respective houses. I think my family have branched into their own families and that’s where they really want to be.

Christmas was a lot better when I was younger. Now it’s filled with unsaid tensions.

I’m glad it’s done now and I can look forward to New Years Eve. That feels more real. That’s done with friends and it’s clear that if you’re invited people want you there, you’re not going to get an invite to a New Year’s Eve party out of some sort of family loyalty.

I don’t know if the whole argument with my boyfriend has blown over.

It wasn’t too bad this year but I am so glad Christmas is over

Grace x


God is not going to give you a husband and God is not going to give you your dream house Monday, Sep 10 2012 

YOU have to get those things for YOURSELF!

Also, no offence, but no one reading this really deserves to be given anything from God- he should really be focusing on Africa at the moment and apparently he can’t even manage that.

I don’t understand why people love someone who clearly doesn’t exist or love them back.

I don’t understand why people idolise someone who can’t really seem to do anything right.

Also, no God didn’t answer your prayers, it’s just a coincidence: You pray enough and eventually coincidence will mean that you get what you prayed for.

I don’t really understand what God did or does for the human race, he was evil enough to be like ‘Oh right Eve, you made on mistake and now you can’t ever atone for it, get out of my house’…would anyone do that to their children? I mean, people tell their children not to do things all the time and don’t throw them out into the wilderness if they do do it. Also, Eve was persuaded by Satan to eat the apple…I’m pretty sure Satan would have some incredible persuasion skills!

But seriously, can anyone state even one thing that God has done for humanity? One thing? I honestly can’t think of one to be honest.

Oh… he did give us the 10 commandments, thou shall not kill is pretty good, shame God forgot about it when he flooded the world.


Grace x