I really want to do something tonight… Sunday, Sep 16 2012 

I have discovered that I’m quite an unhappy person alone, I don’t know if that means I’m really sociable or just really uncomfortable with myself. I hate being alone and I hate going to bed without my boyfriend unless I’m rather drunk from a night out…again: Loving girlfriend or needy phyco?

I’m not really sure. Nothing much is happening tonight and I guess that’s probably a good thing; I haven’t read much in ages and I’m rather behind on my blogging. I can spend time with my little brother and get a really good nights sleep. I should probably tidy up too, it’s getting a bit ridiculous now.

My gecko needs some loving and I really want to have a long bath.

For now I am off to see Paranorman with my little brother- keep your fingers crossed that it’ll be good. Well, last time I went to the cinema with him (he’s 9) we saw the Lorax and I cried my eyes out. Lets hope I keep it together and it’s still a good film- having a hungover breakdown over watching Lion King with my boyfriend yesterday means there have probably been enough tears shed on films as of late!

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Grace x

 

 

10 day challenge! Friday, Sep 7 2012 

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Now, I found this on Google images as I quite enjoyed the 30 day challenge I did in about two days!

As per tradition I shall do this one in just one post! Here it goes!

Ten Secrets:

1) I liked my boyfriend whilst he was going out with my best friend, awful I know

2) I still haven’t told a lot of my close friends about a hugely close death in my family, I don’t  really like to share stuff like that

3) I cheated on my ex boyfriend of over five years (on and off) several times, again, awful I know!

4) I am hugely jealous of pretty much every girl my boyfriend talks to- pathetic, I know.

5) When I plucked my first nipple hair I felt like a Chewbacca and nearly cried.

6) I always want to have a massive accident, like death threatening just to see how people would react. Awful? Insecure? Stupid?

7) Sometimes I don’t do clothes washing or have a shower for absolutely ages- disgusting.

8) I’ve slightly thrown up on my boyfriend’s dick. Yes, I know horrific. He still doesn’t know, it was a tiny bit, I wiped it away, sent him to get me juice and febrezed the shit out of the room. In my defence I was really hungover and he pushed my head down too much.

9) I know this is horrific but I don’t think I could deal with having a disabled child. I know that is completely dreadful but I just don’t know how I would cope!

10) I get really anxious about really silly things such as my boyfriend seeming to be a bit off or a friend not responding to a text for a while, I get easily worried I did something wrong.

Nine Loves:

1) My family

2) My boyfriend

3) My cat

4) My gecko

5) University

6) Sex

7) Cuddling

8) Those websites that let you watch practically anything online

9) (I know I’m cheating a bit here but…) Friends, smoking, going out, drinking

Eight Fears:

1) Spiders

2) Getting broken up with

3) Doing something ridiculously embarrassing like peeing myself in public

4) Being shouted at and general confrontations (I hate it, it scares me and I’m highly likely to cry)

5) Cancer

6) Not being able to have children or for them to have any kind of disabilities

7) Never getting married to someone I am crazy about or them cheating on me

8) Rape

Seven Wants:

1) To get married and have a happy family

2) To have a job I extreamly enjoy

3) To stay with my boyfriend as long as I want to and as long as I love him and he still treats me the way he does

4) My boyfriend to have less female friends

5) For my family to be healthy

6) For my little brother to have everything he wants in life

7) For my dad to meet someone he loves again

Six Places:

1) London: I live here now

2) Russia: I was born here, my grandparents live here, it is still one of my favourite places!

3) Leicester: I go to university here and I adore it!

4) Furteventura (Canary Islands): The first place me and my boyfriend went to on holiday, just the two of us.

5) Ireland: Where every boyfriend and guy I’d got with before my current boyfriend had some kind of roots. This is also the place my boyfriend said we were going instead of the Canary Islands right up until we were at the airport!

6) America: Where I desperately want to go ASAP.

Five Foods:

1) Taco’s: Me and my boyfriend eat these constantly, he cooks them bloody amazing!

2) Noodles: The only thing I can make nearly as good as my boyfriend, and the only thing I can afford to eat when I’m done living like a rock-star for the best part of the month!

3) Spaghetti-Bolognese: We used to have a night for this when I was younger and I just love it! I don’t really like the chunks though, I like it meaty, with juice, and heaps of pasta.

4) Chicken Wrap: You can get these amazing ones with salad and some amazing sauce at a kebab shop near me; it’s cheap and tastes fucking amazing, I get it pretty much at every opportunity!

5) Chicken Bhuna: My favourite Indian dish.

Four Books:

1) ‘Orix and Crake’ by Margaret Atwood: Easily one of my favourite books!

2) ‘Pride and Prejustice’ by Jane Austen: One of my favourite Austen books and the one which got me into classics

3) ‘The Dutchess’ by Amanda Foreman: Brilliant book about how women were crucial to political campaigns even in the 17th century, a story with factual evidence about Georgiana, the Dutchess of Devonshire.

4) ‘Winnie the Pooh’ by A.A. Mills: Come on, a childhood classic like this had to be mentioned, such a beautiful book.

Three Films

1) The Butterfly Effect

2) The Notebook

3) Hannibal

Two Songs:

1) ‘Wherever You Will Go’ by The Calling

2) ‘Fireflies’ by Owl City

One Picture (of yourself)

I really don’t think so! At least not yet…

But here’s a funny one I chuckled over for ages:

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Grace x

30 day meme: My last post nearly made me loose my mind Wednesday, Aug 22 2012 

24. Your favourite movie and what it’s about.
I think this one is actually very difficult because I’ve watched movies from a very early age and me and my boyfriend absolutely love watching movies now so it is going to be hard to decide. I’m putting more than one, I simply cannot choose
-Limitless: Amazing
-Saw (all of them): Horror movies with a message, especially good when they relate to current events (for example, the latest saw where insurance company workers and bankers and targeted)
The Lorax: Saw it with my little brother, a children’s movie in which I cried an amazon rainfall about the values of the environment
– Lion King: Wow, although, when I was little my nan convinced me Mufasa wasn’t dead but was just ‘a bit hurt and resting’
– The Notebook: I know every word of that movie
– Never Let Me Go: Beautiful film involving growing children for their organs
OKAY! I need to stop!
25. Someone who fascinates you and why.
My boyfriend (cringy I know): He is so kind, funny, frustrating and so many other things. I will never forget how amazing he was as a friend when I was having so many troubles with my ex. An example: One night I was chilling at his and me and my boyfriend got into a texting argument, I started crying and he let me cry on me, comforted me, then, when I said I had to go see him said he would walk behind me and keep an eye on me from the distance to make sure I was okay. He’s also beat him up which was just wow. He is amazing and puts up with me now and makes me happy everyday, literally, everyday.
26. What kind of men attracts you?
The thing is, I don’t really know. I mean, I’m usually in a long-term relationship, therefore haven’t really had the experience of being attracted towards many different men. I would say I don’t really have a specific type. My ex was clingy, jealous, very up front with emotions, bit of weight around the tummy. My boyfriend now, I mean, I didn’t think he was even capable of showing up front emotion for a while, he’s athletic and trusting. My main thing about guys is they need to be sweet once we are serious.
27. What problem did you have?
I do not fully understand this question. When? In terms of what? Well I would say I’m not troubled by anything at the moment really, except for my boyfriend’s arm injury. I think the problems I’ve had recently are silly and quite rare spats with my boyfriend about silly things like the dishes. His arm injury was a major problem when it happened but after his operation I feel so much better. I guess, not getting into the uni’s I choose last year was rough, but I still got into an amazing one through clearing. I’m not really sure. I guess I am quite a freakishly happy person though