Being productive is hard! Friday, Sep 7 2012 

So, today I have decided that I shall be extreamly productive and sort out my room, ring my grandparents and sort out my student finance for next year. I have even been as strict with myself as to say that at 12pm (in exactly 10 minutes) I shall get my ass of wordpress and not go on until I have rang the student finance people.

I also really want to go out and get drunk tonight after last night’s failed attempt.

Oh, and what I didn’t mention in my earlier post when I was rather drunk after not getting into a club because I couldn’t be bothered to find my British ID and took my Russian one is that Judas decided to put her and my boyfriend as her cover photo on Facebook. Now, I know it’s probably really petty to care but come on, just the two of them all big on her profile, it fucking irritated the shit out of me and I sent my boyfriend a rather seething text message about how horrified I was at this. She’s changed it now. In my mind that means she thought it was fuck off weird too.

Getting out of bed is going to be a right pain in the backside, probably literally as I am rather bruised after going camping a few days ago.

I have also thought up my question of the day!

Question 5: When do you think it is appropriate to say I love you and would you say it first?

Answer 5: I think that saying I love you is hugely special and should not be said the way it often is now a days. I think it should truly mean that the person you are saying it to is your best friend and lover and you see each other being together forever (even if this isn’t realistic you should at least see the possibility, after all, if you really love them wouldn’t you work to make that happen). My current boyfriend sort of said I love you after six months; well, he basically said ‘ I don’t know if I like or love you’ and I pretended to hurt my head on the lift to change the subject as I didn’t know how to react. I mean, reacting to I love you is hard enough but his who;re ‘I don’t know bit’ was just too much! He said it again later and I just couldn’t reciprocate for a few months because I wasn’t ready to say it. Thankfully he let me have the grace period and I finally said it after 8 and a half months together. He did kind of push towards the end but I wanted to say it by then, I was just too scared. I think a lot of that had to do with my ex; we had met in year 8 and said I love you within about two weeks (I said it first, I was overwhelmed by feelings as he was my first proper boyfriend and we had just been telling each other our deepest secrets)- we did end up staying together for about another five years (with a lot of on and offs) but I did realise that we just said it all the time to make the other one happy and a lot of the time we didn’t actually mean it. Now I’m a big believer in waiting. 

Grace x


Some more fantastic! Tuesday, Aug 21 2012 

I stopped doing the last one as I felt it was getting a bit long, when it was published I realised it wasn’t at all! I’m really enjoying this question business, if you want the full list and where it came from just go on the post named ‘Fantastic’ there’s a link to the blogger who had it on their page
6. Write thirty interesting facts about yourself.
1) I can speak fluent Russian 2) I have a weird growth growing on my foot which feels like an extra bone 3) I have my boyfriend’s name tattooed on the inside of my right foot (‘ Well, this seemed like a good idea’ is the title of that post) 4) I have a gecko which I bought because I was bored one day 5) I love reading and Margaret Atwood’s ‘Orix and Crake’ is my favourite book 6) I don’t leave clubs, I get thrown out of clubs 7) I’ve been arrested for trying to beat up a guy who was about 6’5 when I was drunk (I’m 5’4) 8) I used to do a lot of cross country running 9) I get on significantly better with girls than I do guys 10) One of my back teeth is split in half because one of the recent times I went clubbing a group of guys fighting fell onto me and smashed it and I haven’t been to the dentist yet 11) I had sex for the first time when I was 16 and it was on Christmas Eve 12) I’m a bit of a private nudist, by which I mean I don’t really wear clothes when I’m by myself or with the boyfriend 13) I’ve been told I have a weirdly high sex drive 14) When I was little I cracked my head open while chasing our pet parrot 15) I would love to present one of those historical documentaries, but not one of the boring ones 16) Even when the fridge is stacked full of yummy food I prefer the 11p noodles from Tesco’s 17) I never liked Indian food until I worked in an Indian restaurant for 3 months (after this time I was fired, more on this in a different post I promise its hilarious) 18) (Not going to lie, getting a bit stuck now) I’m allergic to many many many things (cats, feathered pillows, dust, dogs, some creams, that paste you can put on your legs to make your hair fall out, the list just goes on and on) 19) I love reading in the toilet, even when I’m not using it, I’m not entirely sure why 20) I have broken many electrical devises due to bringing them into the bathroom while I wash 21) I can blow really good smoke rings 22) I can be a wide variety of personalities when drunk, for example: angry, loving, horny, bitchy etc. 23) When I got my A-level results (ABB) and realised I wasn’t going to get into the universities I had applied to I got rather drunk and had to call various other universities in a bit of a drunken stupor, somehow I still managed to get into a very good one 24) When drawing stick men mine always seem to have penises as I make their bodies too long and put their legs too high up 25) When I was younger I used to think I could sing and wanted to be a pop star, one night I had my headphones in and must of been singing away (beautifully I believe) when my dad burst shouting “are you all right why were you screaming” 26) I was too terrified to use tampons until a few months ago 27) I fantasise/ daydream a lot… I really hope some of those come true! 28) Somehow, my current boyfriend has managed to make me like days in bed hugging way more than going out 29) I want to get married and have kids in my early 20’s 30) BLOGGING AND READING BLOGS IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!