“What makes your problems bigger than everyone elses?” “They’re mine.” Tuesday, Oct 2 2012 

Yet another brilliant quote from Ally McBeal, that show should really be given for bloggers with writer’s block to watch! Anyway, this quote got me thinking…I mean, essentially, if you think about it, all the problems anyone who is reading this (and hence can get to a computer with an internet connection) really has no problems whatsoever in comparison to about 70% of the world’s population who have real problems, you know, hunger, homelessness ect. Now, even thinking about this it does make so many problems seem pointless and stupid, I mean, I worry about my boyfriend breaking up with me when there are people worrying if their children will come back from digging in gutters for food or plastic to sell. Perspective aye.

On the other hand, I do also believe that everyone’s problems are relative, I mean, for some it’s poverty and for others it’s being rejected for a promotion. I know the two are in no way similar in terms of severity but I do believe that for those who haven’t experienced true problems something like the lack of a promotion could feel like the biggest problem in the world. Essentially, feelings are relative and the thing is, you are the center of your world, hence, I think, your problems do of course seem like something absolutely tragic is happening to you. I think the reality is that you know that your problems aren’t that big in the lager sense of things but because they are yours and are happening to you, do seem like world problems every time.

Well, that’s just my opinion? What does everyone else think about the topic of problems and relativity?

Grace x

Rejuvenation! Monday, Aug 27 2012 

I like to move my room around, but I can’t- it’s too damn messy!

Now, it’s too late for me to buy hair dye; I can’t be bothered to clean; I don’t have the energy to shower and I’m too young for botox. So, how do I change things with the littlest effort?

I always feel that changing things up helps me. I usually love moving things in my room around but I don’t have the energy to do that after tonight’s events. So…the modern internet rejuvenation? Change the layout of your blog!

Mine looks all new and sparkly now. I have also decided to stay up so late that I basically pass out. I also want to stay up so late that when I wake up my boyfriend is basically here. How very tactical of me!

Grace x

Writing Challenge: Smoking made it happen, Smoking makes her forget Sunday, Aug 26 2012 

Today I stumbled across a wonderful site: http://oursalon.wordpress.com/ where a challenge was given to write a poem, dialogue or story about a picture in no more or less than six sentences while using the picture given as inspiration. Here’s my attempt!

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The baby was crying; the baby was 12.

‘Don’t smoke pregnant’ they’d said.

She ignored them- She knew people who had.

This burden wasn’t on them however, she was the one carrying the curse.

Her partner had left, it was all too much for him, she still wore the ring.

Sitting alone she wondered, where did she get it so wrong.

Grace x

Lack of motivation Sunday, Aug 26 2012 

I have so many things to do but I just can’t seem to get around to achieving them.

I need to sort out a lot of things at the bank and with student finance.

I need to see my friend who I haven’t seen all summer.

I need to sort out my room and my house.

I need to clean out my gecko cage.

I need to make a new bank account.

I need to look for jobs the next student year.

I need to do a lot more things.

I feel like I have no energy to do anything and I know that I will feel so much better when I have done all these things but I just seem to not be able to get the initial motivation. Even right now, I need to go food shopping but I just can’t seem to get up. I have no idea why I can’t be motivated to do anything, nothing’s even wrong, but I just feel drained.

I have also realised that although my boyfriend it kind, loving and supportive I seem to have drifted from a lot of friends because I want to spend all my time with him; I seem to have become lazy and incapable of doing things without him; I have grown jealous; I have become needy. I feel like it is definitely time for me to return to university, I mean, I respond well to goals with a time frame such as assignments. During summer I just seem to be exhausted, immobile and, to an extent, somewhere deep down, in content and saddened.

Maybe today is just a bad day, I am generally a very happy person.

I want to sort out a lot of things tomorrow, maybe putting it on this blog will help me.

First, I will have a good sleep. I will then wake and sort out my student finance. I will then smoke, blog and relax. I will then call my bank and try to sort things out. I will then begin sorting out my house. I want to feel happy and content, in a lovely environment tomorrow. I hope I do these things.

Music always helps.

Grace x

30 day meme: My last post nearly made me loose my mind Wednesday, Aug 22 2012 

24. Your favourite movie and what it’s about.
I think this one is actually very difficult because I’ve watched movies from a very early age and me and my boyfriend absolutely love watching movies now so it is going to be hard to decide. I’m putting more than one, I simply cannot choose
-Limitless: Amazing
-Saw (all of them): Horror movies with a message, especially good when they relate to current events (for example, the latest saw where insurance company workers and bankers and targeted)
The Lorax: Saw it with my little brother, a children’s movie in which I cried an amazon rainfall about the values of the environment
– Lion King: Wow, although, when I was little my nan convinced me Mufasa wasn’t dead but was just ‘a bit hurt and resting’
– The Notebook: I know every word of that movie
– Never Let Me Go: Beautiful film involving growing children for their organs
OKAY! I need to stop!
25. Someone who fascinates you and why.
My boyfriend (cringy I know): He is so kind, funny, frustrating and so many other things. I will never forget how amazing he was as a friend when I was having so many troubles with my ex. An example: One night I was chilling at his and me and my boyfriend got into a texting argument, I started crying and he let me cry on me, comforted me, then, when I said I had to go see him said he would walk behind me and keep an eye on me from the distance to make sure I was okay. He’s also beat him up which was just wow. He is amazing and puts up with me now and makes me happy everyday, literally, everyday.
26. What kind of men attracts you?
The thing is, I don’t really know. I mean, I’m usually in a long-term relationship, therefore haven’t really had the experience of being attracted towards many different men. I would say I don’t really have a specific type. My ex was clingy, jealous, very up front with emotions, bit of weight around the tummy. My boyfriend now, I mean, I didn’t think he was even capable of showing up front emotion for a while, he’s athletic and trusting. My main thing about guys is they need to be sweet once we are serious.
27. What problem did you have?
I do not fully understand this question. When? In terms of what? Well I would say I’m not troubled by anything at the moment really, except for my boyfriend’s arm injury. I think the problems I’ve had recently are silly and quite rare spats with my boyfriend about silly things like the dishes. His arm injury was a major problem when it happened but after his operation I feel so much better. I guess, not getting into the uni’s I choose last year was rough, but I still got into an amazing one through clearing. I’m not really sure. I guess I am quite a freakishly happy person though