Explosion Monday, Dec 24 2012 

Yesterday me and some friends went to a pub, my boyfriend was amongst the group that went.

He had made a pub quiz for us all to do and when the pub closed decided to carry on doing it outside.

I was freezing and made a fuss about us just going home as I hadn’t slept the night before; was ridiculously cold; and just believed the night was over.

He still continued with the quiz and insisted I stayed when I tried to leave even thought I said he could just come home after me.

Anyway, we walked home in complete silence with me putting my headphones on.

When we got home he gave me a kiss on the head and said bye- apparently he was going to his dads.

He walked off and after having a little cry on the street I followed him.
I think the above picture is the only way to describe what happened next…

He completely exploded about me always wanting to get my own way and being weird about him being friends with girls. He then refused to come back to mine.

It was a truly horrific night with a lot of crying and I genuinely thought we were breaking up.

Finally, he came back home.

I was so tired and a bit drunk and kept falling asleep and thinking of Pokemon during the conversation.

We fought about me not liking him being friends with girls and I said I got jealous of any girl spending more time with him than I do- he said no girl does. I said I didn’t like the way some of his friendships were.

The argument ended for him in me saying I would chill about girls and wouldn’t be so pushy.

I think this is definitely one of the most horrific arguments we’ve had.

We went to Christmas lunch at his and he says everything is fine and we’re okay and he loves me. I worry that he’ll change his mind.

I hate that I don’t get to see him till the day after Boxing Day- consequently that is also his birthday.

I’m guessing this Christmas isn’t going to be particularly great.

Grace x

I want something… Sunday, Sep 16 2012 

I don’t know what I want this evening. I want my boyfriend here. I know it’s pathetic that I miss him when he’s gone to his dads for only a day but I do.

The bed feels massive even though it’s a single

Most of my friends have gone off to university so there really isn’t much to do.

Do I want food?

Do I want to watch something? Read something? Take a bath?

I doubt I’m going to figure it out; so for now, I’m going to the shops for cigarettes. God I wish I didn’t smoke so this would be a treat.

I want to tidy up but I don’t have the energy.

I want to go to sleep but I’m not that tired.

Why the fuck am I upset? Everything’s fucking fine.

Grace x

I really can’t be bothered! Friday, Aug 31 2012 

I can’t be bothered to continue with the DIY

I can’t be bothered to shower

I can’t be bothered to go to the pub

I’m not surprised really, I mean, an all nighter last night and a long night ahead of me tonight. I really just want to cuddle with my boyfriend, even though I am still rather upset about the whole business that I discussed in the previous post.

Something I’m Proud Of:

Not going onto my boyfriend’s Facebook to stalk him in anyway even though I know his passwords. Day’s like this make is slightly more challenging though!

My plan now is to move everything from my dad’s room to my little brother’s room. If it’s not in his way he won’t really care when I put the bed up, as long as my little brother isn’t back from Grandma’s by that point.

But first… a tiny, TINY, nap……..

Grace x

I’m so tired Friday, Aug 31 2012 

So, it is 2.09 am in the U.K.

I need to go to the hospital with my boyfriend at 8 am. I already do not trust myself to get up, but today I’ve also had a fair bit of wine; therefore, the likelihood of me getting up is reduced rather substantially.

I have a very bad relationship with alarm clocks. The thing is, when I’m woken up rather harshly I don’t really know what’s going on and I have a tendency to either switch the alarm off or throw the clock/phone at a wall. This is facilitated to an even greater extent by the fact that my boyfriend is a rather heavy sleeper and even if he is woken up when he’s asleep he is likely to forget and instantly fall back to sleep. Therefore, on many occasions when one of us or both of us need to get up I, in my drowsy state, switch off the alarm and fall back to sleep, not really knowing what’s happened. This results in us both waking up later in a frenzy and blaming the manufacturers for us not waking up while running to wherever we need to go. Today this shall not happen. Today I am staying wide awake.

Although, in retrospect, talking about sleep when trying to stay awake probably wasn’t the best of my ideas. I am so tired. I want to sleep so bad. Only four more hours until it seems reasonable to be awake for the task at hand

Grace x

Back from the pub Thursday, Aug 30 2012 

I am currently back home from the pub, I’m feeling rather tipsy but I know I can’t go to sleep because I need to be up at 7am to go to the hospital with my boyfriend.

Those of you who have read my posts before will know that me and Chelsea don’t always get along. However, today we had a pretty good evening, just the two of us. General gossip and funny stories were exchanged and it was a good night. I’m rather shocked.

I guess I’ll be reading blogs/ blogging quite a lot today.

Hope I stay awake

Grace x

My first google search Saturday, Aug 25 2012 

I have just been notified by wordpress that I have got my first view through someone googlIng ‘is getting a boyfriend’s name tattooed on you a good idea’, how exciting!  As some of you may know I have my boyfriend’s name tattooed on my foot as the result of a dare and a drunken holiday, something I don’t regret at all.

Also, I have significantly calmed down after yesterday’s fiasco of friends out staying their welcome due to my boyfriend being so amazing that night, he even let me watch 3 whole episodes of sex and the city….what a win!

Hope everyone is having a great day

Grace x

I Need to Rant Friday, Aug 24 2012 

Right, so today, I woke up at 6am to take my boyfriend to the hospital, made sure I was super supportive and had a few people round after as a surprise. Now, I know that it can be argued that I put myself into the mess of having to tell them to leave but this is just getting ridiculous!

I have a headache, I’m tired as fuck and I just want them all to go and chill! To top it all off my boyfriend has decided to pay me no attention and spend his time thinking of women who ‘would get it’ with his friends! 

They are all still here and I’m being antisocial on the pretence of smoking due to that fact that I am slowly and slowly getting more irritated. I mean, surely when the host states many a times that they are tired; asks the time frequently and has informed you before hand that this gathering would not last long you would know to leave?

Grace x